dahil kailangan ko lang TALAGA maglabas ng sama ng loob

wala kasi yan sa pagscheschedule ng isang "pictorial" (duh, may mga facebook, multiply, friendster accounts naman kayong lahat at ugaling ugali niyong mag-camwhore), at talagang tinaon pa sa isang araw na para sa akin ay napaka-espesyal, kundi nasa mga taong makakasalumuha mo ng dalawang oras.

Diba wala na kayong paki sa akin, hindi na ako nanghihimasok sa mga desisyon niyo. Evident naman sa facebook accounts niyo ang mga saya and everything niyo, dahil may isang tao na kayong nasaktan at alam niyong humahadlang sa mga plano niyong lahat.

Sa loob ng tatlong buwan, tatlong beses niyo na rin akong nasaktan. Ganito ba ang sinasabi niyong kaibigan?! Una, ang pambobola ng lider mo, tapos may sasabihin dahil hindi niya kaya, tapos babawain, at kailangan mong tanggapin dahil TAMA siya lagi, at tapos, ni-ha ni-ho, PISO LANG MAGTEXT para magsabing natuloy siya. BUREAUCRACY at its finest! Pangalawa, alam na ngang maraming tao sa MoA, busy kami mag-usap at nalalapit na ang oras ng programa, para magsabi at lumapit lang ng "may magbabanyo", o kahit text, tapos ikaw pa ang biktima-biktimahan?! Ano ba naman yan. Pangatlo, gusto niyo akong pumunta sa isang lugar na sabi ko na sa sarili ko, ayaw ko nang tumapak muli, at kailan niyo ako gusto pumunta, sa isang araw na kailanman isinumpa niyo sa mundo?! anak ng...

Katulad ng nabanggit ko dati, hindi ko na pinag-aaksayahan ang anumang mayroon ako sa mga taong hindi naman deserve lahat ng pawis, iyak, at dugong lumalabas sa akin. Tutal naman, nakakayanan ninyong ipagpalit ang halos isang dekadang pagkakaibigan sa kawalan niyo ng initiatibo, sino ba naman ako para tumanggi, dahil tama naman lagi kayo diba?!

Matagal na akong nagtitimpi, pero sa text na natanggap ko rito, ano ba ito, nananadya?! P.I. lang talaga! At ang nakakaasar pa, pinipilit ka pa, willing pang baguhin ang petsa para lang "mapagbigyan" ako. Insensitive ba?! Sinabi ko na kahit iurong niyo 'yan sa "Til Jesus Come Day", hinding hindi hindi ako pupunta. Sinayang niyo naman ang oras ko dati, bakit ko pa sasayangin ang oras ko para diyan.

Maling desisyon. Ginawa na yan ni PGMA nung Hello Garci. Pati ba naman ang kapalaran ko dati?! Hindi ko naman hiningi yun, it was something imposed. Then another case arises now, sasabihin niyo maling desisyon yung ginawa sa akin. Ano ba naman yan?! Hindi ko sinasabing tama lang ang tinatanggap ko, ang naging masakit sa akin, ang taong pinagkakatiwalaan ko sunod sa mga magulang ko pa ang nagsabi noon. Masakit para sa akin, pero nang marealize ko na mali pala ang lahat sa akin sa simula pa lang, wala na akong magagawa kundi itama iyon.

Sabi nga ng isang lecture class ko dati, "huwag mong hayaan na sa isang organisasyon maging bonsai ka. maganda ka kung titignan pero hindi ka na lalaki dahil sa kinalalagyan mo".

PHWEH!

LMAO.

Sobra, natawa talaga ako today.

Despite of not going to classes due to very bad flood (which I missed a lot because of that), I was LMAO today, more than ever!

Aside from our EB Meeting last night, the LMAO train continued when I rewatched How I Met Your Mother Season 1 Episodes 1-7 last night. (Thanks to Vic for lending me his precious CD)

Then eto pa, since my blogspot doesn't have alerts at my mail, there's a message left, siguro days from now at one of my blogs here.

I was laughing while I was reading it, di ko mapigilang matawa.

Angry ka dapat diba when you read those kind of junk diba, pero natawa lang ako kasi talaga, wahahahahahaha... aside sa katawa-tawa ang pinagsasabi niya, (giving a non-friend friendly solicitated advices) such as humanap ng alila, maarte ako and stuff... jebs lang talaga! haha.

Effective ang mirror of erised. Sabagay, birds of the same feather nga pala diba! haha. :))

Ang magreact, may prize, best actress! haha.

What if the Mirror of Erised shows up to me?

As you all know, I am taking my Harry Potter classes as my Literature Elective class. I really really adore this novel, so I'm really really having fun. And if you may ask, what house I belong to? I BELONG TO RAVENCLAW!

Anyway, we discussed book 1 today, we had this trivial trivial VERY trivial test, as in the minor details that you overlooked was asked, and alas, I got 23/25. DANG YOU TYPE OF WOOD! haha.

So as our discussion deepens, Professor Sangil asked, "What will you see in the Mirror of Erised when it shows up to you?"

While going home, I really thought about it. What will it show?

I've listed these three possibilities:

1) Senator John Daniel G. Salonga;

2) (bit personal but something to do on having a relationship); and lastly,

3) Dad called me and said that I am the prince of this kingdom. a.k.a. PRINCESS DIARIES-esque

But honestly, my co-housemate, the Headgirl is right, why should I want to see the mirror if I know it won't happen. As my professor said, "Ron's desire is BEING, Harry's desire is BECOMING". Of course, his dead parents won't live again diba?!

So what should be someone's desire: one that will be his BEING or his BECOMING?

You, what will the Mirror of Erised show you?

Nalulungkot ako para sa kapatid ko.
Naranasan niya ang ayaw kong maranasan din niya, ang umasa.
Hindi, hindi ito dahil sa pag-ibig.
Hello, 11 years pa lang siya! Di ko muna papayagan ang may manligaw! haha.
Pero, balik sa punto, umasa ang kapatid ko.
Pareho ng mga taong nagpa-asa sa akin noon.

Ganito ba talaga ang parusa sa mga mababait na tao?
Gagamitin at kapag tapos na ang silbi, wala na.
Tapos babalikan at hahanapin.

Cha-cha on PSC

I've read a news article over gmanews.tv that Speaker Prospero Nograles and a couple of representatives in the congrASS este congress wanted to have a fixed term for Philippine Sports Commission.

Nograles believes that it can implement a long-term sports program. According to him, it is sufficient to train potential athletes so that we could be competitive in a global sports world, especially on bagging our "eye-on-the-prize" olympic gold medal.

The current PSC Chair is disqualified 3rd District Manila Representative Harry Angping, whose wife is currently seating and voted for Con-Ass. My Grandfather's friend, former Manila Mayor Mel Lopez, headed PSC in the 1990s.

My reaction?

It's about time! Hello!!! I firmly believe that if there is a problem, the system and its grassroots should be addressed. If a high number of out-of-school youths can't afford even public education, investing in sports could paved way for their education. Athlete-Scholars are prized possessions of the school (believe me!). This is my grandfather's ideal, when he established BOYAA, the oldest Metro Manila Sports Community Based Organization. If I have the guts, I'll continue his advocacy.

However, I'm worried, why is this resolution now? If PGMA really wants to develop athletic holistic growth of Filipino youth, why now? Smelling politics, this would favor Angping a lot, as a reward for Nadia's vote on Con-Ass.

DepEd was Department of Education, Culture and Sports before, but now, we are reviving the sports curricula. So what happened in 8 years of Sports..... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.... No wonder we performed poor in Athens 04 and Beijing 08, though SEA Games in 05 was outstanding.

I'm happy that Chess is now part, I believe it would increase LOGIC and COGNITION of our Filipino youth. Aside from having 10/11 (number disputed) Grandmasters in the country, the Philippines is a sleeping giant when it comes to this sport.

For the mean time, I'll keep my eye close in this matter. I only hope Advocacy overcomes Political Patronage on this issue.

Iranian Elections

I can't help but to compare the situation Iran has now and the Philippines had in 2004. You have an incumbent running for the position and a "reformer" vowing to change things in the country. Well, I'm only aware about things in Iran is that they've blocked facebook, cellular phone network down, and a lot of things that is connected to "cheating".

Oh well, whatever Iranian decides, I just hope it would be the greater good of the world.

If you ask me, I think Mahmoud (cause I can't spell his last name CORRECTLY) is a very polarizing figure. Though applauded on his conservative tone, women's rights is still an issue. I am for the women and I think their importance in the society should be taken account to. Even though it is hundred years tradition, I firmly believe that ONE VOTE can change the course.

After this, if Gordon Brown calls for Parliament Dissolution (which is unlikely in the next couple of months), I shall turn in to the first international election I tuned in to, and was and am fascinated of. I'm thinking the Tories (or Conservatives) can regain control of the government after 12 years of the Blairian Decade. I really like Tony Blair, why does this good man have to be dragged by a President who was thrown by a shoe! haha.

Then, on October, I'll go back to the Philippine Election setting.

If you ask me, I'm pro-Cha-Cha, pro-NOW (as in now na!), but anti-Con-Ass.

Iyaking bata!!!!

Sabi sa akin ng maraming tao, lalo na nung bata ako, iyaking bata ako - sobra. Konting daplis, konting sakit lang, umiiyak na ako.

Pero narealize ko na ngayon, kakaibang iyak na ang ginagawa ko.

umiyak ako sa mga sumusunod na dahilan

1. Gusto kong pumunta sa Ako Mismo thingy, pero pinilit ng nanay ko na "magbonding" kami sa Timberland. Point niya, di pa ako nakakarating dun. Eh ang dami ko lang gagawin. So nagbrat nanaman ako today. Sa sobrang brat ko, sa buffet table, konti lang kinain ko at naghalo-halo lang ako. wala ako sobra sa mood.

2. Akala ko kaibigan ang mga taong kakilala ko. Despite being happy watching PCD last night, nawala sila parang bula, WALANG PAALAM ika nga. Then without informing you STRIKE TWO for the day. Clap clap! Wait, worth it bang iyakan ang mga taong yun in the first place.

3. Gia (our EIC) texted me and said they've scrapped my column. I know the reason, rather not disclosed it until it confirms. Alam mo yun, what I've learned from DQ (Conrade de Quiros), parang nabasura lang. :(

4. (Leah and Giselle would get this) Si bestfriend ni Manggoshake, dalawang linggo nang hindi nagpaparamdam. Today, birthday ng kuya-kuyahan ko, and hindi siya nagrereply. He greeted me first on my birthday 2 years ago, and alam ko, ako ang una dahil pareho kami ng relo. Siguro nag-iba na siya ng number. Pero he knows that I remembered his birthday. Haaay, bakit ang taong malapit sa puso mo, di nagpaparamdam, the time you needed them the most.

5. Gusto ko nang pumasok. Simple reason: di ko na kayang mag-isa.

Sana matapos na itong araw na ito. Di ko na kaya pang umiyak, malungkot, magalit at higit sa lahat, mamiss ang taong iyon. :(

I'm back!

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